A Bitter, I mean BETTER Sight

Saturday.

My friends and I went to Alabang Town Center to go play at Laser Extreme. It’s similar to paintball but instead of paint in a gun, the gun shoots laser beams to other opponents. You are also equipped with a vest full of colorful lasers which determine what team you’re on. There are points that you can achieve when you shoot in the parts of the vest. The highest point that you can have is on the shoulder part, I think. I didn’t really pay attention during the instructions because I was so excited to play. :D we are eleven in total and we decided to go teams. Girls versus boys.  Our color was pink and theirs was blue. It was so fun! 

For a moment there I forgot what I have gone through, it felt like I am anew.  While we were walking around the mall, C texted me, he asked why am I not responding to any of his messages. I asked one of my friends about it. She got mad, well not mad. ;) She told me that’s the annoying part, you are having fun and then the person texts you, then suddenly all you can think about now is that person and the message. A fun-spoiler. I analyzed myself if I really were bothered by the message. Guess what? I wasn’t. In fact he doesn’t sneak in to my mind from time to time now. I do not think of him and be saddened by seeing his face in my mind. Maybe I am better now.  Healthier in one way or another.  Maybe the emotional downpour I did the other night was all I need to release these stress inside of me. Maybe I cried because there are just so many thoughts in my mind that I could not handle anymore. And maybe I just felt bad of what happened and what I did that’s why I was that emotional. My feelings towards him? It suddenly changed. Now I was thankful of myself for what I did. 

I guess I am really better. Not just an effort of myself. But also of my friends who were always been there for me. When I have dilemmas they are just one message away. They helped me cope up with my episodes of anxiety and made me feel I was recovered, even if I wasn’t yet. They made me look things in a different way. They made me possess a better sight in life.

 

Now, I want to share my accomplishment with them and perhaps it’s my turn to be the one who would offer a hand for them to stand up, than being the one who waits to be pulled up. I’ll make it certain that our friendship will last for as long as we needed it. 

I Love You FRIENDS! Thank You! ;)