Your Sugar Sweet Lies

I found out that he’s been with her girlfriend all this time while we were dating. I didn’t mind asking him about it because I thought that I would just be wasting my time. And I was right. He said that all of it weren’t true and that he is only friends with the girl. I was like, bullshit! You are friends with someone when she calls you with a pet name? You are friends with someone whom will tell you she loves you? And that you are friends with someone who greets you a “Happy 36 month anniversary?”  And yeah, He denies it every time he is confronted about it.

The thought of thinking about “the day” made my stomach turn and curse every little thing that happened.

And I thought all we had was real.

It was a massive slap in the face, knowing that every time you are with him, there is someone waiting for him to get back and I don’t even know if the other one even had an idea of me. I was frustrated and disappointed of him.

Good thing I was already out of his bounds and that I declared to myself not to communicate with him anymore. It was HARD. Seeing him every after class, hearing people talk about him within your hearing,  Forcing you not to think of him at least is just as hard. I tried deleting his number, although I knew them by heart. I thought I was going to give up, and knowing he’s just one message away might have been my first notion. But I did not let my feelings lay me up. I was headstrong. Determined. And stubborn, in a positive way.

I deserved better.