I was the one who broke up with him; I was the one who felt guilty afterwards. Even a time came that I can’t even focus on my NLE Review because of what happened. I thought of letting go the one who called me as his “princess” was never a good idea after all. I cried all night, I cried while listening to every lecturer. I cried even with just a touch in my shoulder, accompanying a: “Kim, are you okay?” question. I cried as I drive myself home, with lonely songs in the background. I didn’t care who will see me and how they will react. I couldn’t help it.
And then something happened that changed everything. Someone told me everything, and by everything I meant the LIES, CHEATING and CONTROVERSIES. It left me cold and broken. That was the time when I thought to myself that, “hey, you've been cheated.. AGAIN.” I was so mad about what happened, I was so mad at him. He made me do some things that I never thought for a life time that I have the ability of doing. Yes, I loved him. But he did not deserve that love after all. I sucked. Big time. I don’t blame him for everything that happened, It was my fault for believing every word he said. Well scratch that, I blame him. ENTIRELY. why this is happening to me is all because of his deceiving words and actions. He made me believe that I am the only one, not a second choice. Now I was the one paying the price, cleaning every mess he left for me. Clearing my name.
I decided to let EVERYTHING go. One night I gathered all the things he gave to me. I put them inside a big box. I had to buy a new one because this one isn’t enough to hold all these things he gave me. I need to give them back to him. I need MY peace of mind. I knew that every time I’ll lay hands on them, I will definitely think about him. What’s in the box are as follows:
1. T-shirts - he gave these on my birthday, we shopped while carrying a cake and flowers, making everyone turn their heads.
2. His prep I.D. – he gave this to me and asked me to keep it, he looked like a ceramic doll in his picture though.
3. Box of cute pencils – he knew my favourite color is pink. Those are cute pencils, I never used them.
4. Notebooks – the one has a donut and candies picture in the cover and the other has a picture of a boy sailing. He told me, “I picked this notebook for you to remind you of how I looked like when I was young.”
5. Happy Meal Toys – Every time we ate at McDonalds.
6. A pair of shades – this, he left at the car, It took me this long to return it to him.
7. Roses
8. Bracelets – he gave me these when he went to Bohol, they’re so cute it made me want to hold on to them. But No, they have to be returned.
9. Two empty tumblers of Starbucks Coffee with our names on it – He told me to keep them for no apparent reason.
10. His lame drawing of me and his sickening handwriting
11. Ring
12. Others – like receipts from restaurants, cinema tickets, and love notes.
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| BOX HALF FULL |
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