Last Love Letter

DEAR: YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,

You have no idea how much I miss you. I know you might not feel the same way. Well, I DON’T CARE. I know I was the reason we have come to this, and I don’t really have the right to ask for anything from you in return. I was stupid letting you go, I realized what I had to lose the moment we parted ways, Now there is nothing to do but to deal with it. You were my very first “real one”. I have done so many wrongs and I understand if you don’t want to talk anymore.

You were the one who brought out the best in me. The one who pushed me into doing good but knows how and when to have fun when the situation calls for it. The one who changed my point of view on the subject of destiny. :) I’ll miss your face with a silly smile on it, how you’ll laugh at how my face looked like after you teased me about almost everything. I’ll miss how you would react and pretend to laugh when I deliver a joke wrong and how I would punch you in the face after. Everywhere I look reminds me of you, every song I hear; there is an association with you. I have never felt this way before. I know this will be hard, but in time I may have to overtake this chapter in my life.

Don’t worry about me; I have my friends and family with me to keep me sane. And you know who else is? My mom. She’s been with me these past few days, being supportive and all. She made me understand LOVE: how it works, and how it is supposed to be. I am thankful she's always here. Looking back, I realized how stubborn I was with you, especially our last days together. For there is no one compared to you, you were like my best friend and my brother. You’ve taught me so much.. about life, family and just about everything. I can only be myself with you. I knew I can because you accept me. The times I was immature, you understood me. You were there when I needed you. I’ll miss those happy days with you, they will be forever in my memory.

I hate writing everything in “past tense”, but I guess that’s just how it is, I am still in the Denial stage now, there's still four stages I have to go through, but this was all my fault, I started all this. Now I have to face it. Just like what you said, "there are consequences in every decision we make." I think I'll just have to concentrate on my studies just like what mom told me. I hope I’ll hear from you soon, there will be no one who could always make me laugh like you did :(

-KIM