Run.

All my friends know that I had just got out from a bad relationship. One that is really bad. So bad that putting them into writing just hurts my fingertips in doing so. So after that I promised myself to just take time off. To just enjoy my friends and family’s company, and most of all, to enjoy myself. The thing about the words ME and PROMISE put together? They just don’t chase. I was terrible. I couldn’t keep promises even to just myself.

And so as everyone is having their daily dose of ordinariness in their lives, I met someone. Well, not really, because I have already known him from my high school. We were on vacation then and he substituted for his brother who will not be able to join. Our vacation lasted for 3 days and that is a hell lot of fun. Considering that friends are reunited and the nature is closer to us than before. A remarkable way to start the year, right?

At each day, we got closer and friends notice. But I myself didn’t pay attention and that I did not see anything special about it. After the vacation we got the chance to know each other, phone calls came here and there. And then I got used to it. I got used to him being always there. And so is he. But this has got to stop. There are matters that are more important than this that I could not say for now. And it involves me, him and someone else.  I knew that this is wrong, but I couldn’t stay away anymore. I knew that it had to be stopped, but I just couldn’t let go what has been here just like that. I knew that in the first place, I had to run. But I found my feet sucked on the ground, sinking as seconds pass.

It sucks that one day after another; I’m finding myself reliant to him. Every day I look forward to answering his calls and eventually, seeing him again. What sucks more is that I have a reason to let go from the beginning but I have disregarded it. It sucks that I can’t even keep my promise. And you know what else sucks? I fell in love with him.