MINE. :)

I wasn’t able to update my blog because I was on vacation. Last night we went to star city with my old friends and I was surprised to find us complete, almost. Because only one was not able to join. I missed them, they were the ones I have been with since freshman days. Included was a long time friend. Well, scratch the friend. A crush. ;)

He’s been my crush for as long as I can remember and the day I found out what he felt for me was when C and I started dating. He was furious of me not telling him about us, and I was gloomy since then. Sure I was inlove with C but what I felt with Ven (okay I typed his name! I will soon die if he finds out about this! Haha!) was extraordinary, I liked him since I was in first year college and continued to like him before I met C. We were kind of together the whole time. You know what boyfriends do, he waits for me until my classes end, gives me treats and treats me everywhere! ;) when they went to Korea with his family, he came home with a bunch of pasalubong for me and I’m telling you, they’re loads! He even got us a keychain with two characters in it, one for me and one for him. And that he was my escort on my debutant party. My family already knows about him and they already approve of him even if he’s not my boyfriend yet. Also his family knows about me already and them too, approves of me as their son's girlfriend. So when my parents found out about C being my already boyfriend, they were shocked but they were still supportive of that matter.

So when C and I were already together, I told him about us and he got mad. He said hurtful things to me like how I was so numb of him and that I did not gave importance of him. But I did, and I waited for him for three years, but nothing is happening. He even told me that he didn’t know that I would want someone to call my own, a boyfriend. Fck that. Who would reason out like that? The only problem I have with him is that he does not show what he feels, he gives me stuffs that I like but not telling me what I want to hear. Yes he makes me feel special among the others but he never said what he felt of me. Leaving me confused and puzzled. But months ago, we agreed to call each other MINE. But for fun only, we do not call each other as that most of the time. But isn’t it cute? I hope he would show his feelings towards me soon. Even in gradual action. :)

I thought what I felt for him has changed, I thought it was lessened since I was with C. but being with him last night, I overlooked all the negatives I had of him, I realized that I missed him. We were always together walking side by side, riding all the roller coasters we passed. It makes me want to sing a BEATLES song, “I Want To Hold Your Hand” HAHA! My friends even tease us that we should “bring it back” :D I guess he will always be that way, maybe he really is childish beyond his manly features and marvelous height, making me so small when I was walking with him. I guess I just have to accept the fact that he is withdrawn when it comes to things like that, and that maybe, we will just have to wait to see what is ahead of us two.

I guess He will always be my torpe boy :D 

A picture taken during our sophomore days. :) Look at how nene I was! =))