The Waiting Game

My blog entry, dated Sep 9, '09 2:00 AM

WAITING

Falling in and out of love.

It’s easier when in the first place, You will love people. People who are better than you. People who will leave, or will not hesitate to. Though it’s not guaranteed, you’ll be able to move on, to forget someone so great to you. But there was never any surprise, especially when you do not know if the other feels the same way as you do.

Does he remember the times when I used to care?
The times when my heart sank every time I saw him?

I can remember clearly.
I was the girl there when everyone else was gone. I WAS.

Myself was all to blame when i thought that he is feeling the same way. Until a time i have realized that when you like someone, your mind will somehow make the things you see of him put towards your liking. you make something out of it thus, making yourself believe that he TOO feels the same way. And making everything feels so right, and wrong, at the same time.

But that was then. I guess he made me wait for so long. I've gone tired while in the process. And i don't like this.

I'm scared of what I am feeling.
I'm scared of falling out of love with him.

And I don't think I made any sense at all. :D 

These are the times when I was so frustrated of him, finding myself in the front of my laptop already typed these senseless paragraphs. See how I waited then? It even came to a point that I am near to losing my sanity. 

A blog entry I made for Ven last year =)