Cheater.

We’ve all heard of stories about third parties. It could be in movies or unfortunately for some, in real life. Some turned out how we would want them to be, which is, for the original two to come back together. Well, some haven’t had the best directors and playwright in town for their stories to become what it’s supposed to be, or rather what the wife wants the story to be. Yes I was talking about a couple with a mistress attached to the husband’s skull-shaped belt chain.

I guess people watching across the silver screen; aside from being hooked up and carried away by every scene in the movie doesn’t really have an idea on what it’s like to be the wife. Except when she already experienced it. Well, I’m not really telling that it’s only the guy who gets the role to fool around; men and women have equal possibilities and probabilities to be the “cheating” one. So when people stereotype men to be unfaithful, I don’t really get the point of agreeing instantaneously because women tends to do it also. All my point is that people are all UNPREDICTABLE. There’s no label to a man that all of them are infidel, and so is to women.  

If this blog has gone public, maybe one reader would ask, “Where are all these coming from?” And yes, that I would definitely answer. I have just watched the movie, “No Other Woman”.  I know not all would blog about the movie, Well let’s say that I was one of those who were actually caught by each and every scene. I am hearing a joke about girls wanting to see the movie with their boyfriends, and the guys would tell their girls, “Oh, so.. You really wanna see the movie, huh? Why don’t I just cheat on you, and then I would introduce the girl to you. What do you say? That would be way better than watching this film in 3D.” Haha! No, No, No!  :D

Speak Now

When Taylor Swift first came out in the music industry, I wasn’t right away amused with her music. Compared to other musicians, I find her not included in my top lists. Until she released her latest album, “Speak Now” I know this is way too late to write for an album review but I just really had to. Why? Because I’ve seen myself in this album, I’ve heard myself saying the same lyrics, some are even hard to put into words but then came a song from this album, and it totally speaks for what happened. She has her way of telling stories that makes it exceptional for our hearing.  I made a review on some of the songs there, mostly I can totally relate:

1.   1.   Mine – From what I catch on Tay’s point of view, Mine is a song about having to choose between running away from love and taking a risk on it. “I was a flight risk, with a fear of falling.” Everyone has their inhibitions and their own ways of avoidance even when love is already in your face. But you can’t really tell what’s waiting for you if you wouldn’t give it a try, right?

2.   2.   Sparks Fly – “My mind forgets to remind me, you’re a bad idea” I think this song pertains to falling for the person you aren’t supposed to fall for. We can’t really choose who we’re gonna fall in love into, and most of the time, the more we try to stay away from that person, the more we find ourselves being attached. “I’m on my guard for the rest of the world but with you, I know it’s no good.”

3.   3.   Speak Now – The first time I heard this on the radio, I thought she just tells in the lyrics about professing your love to someone, but when I started listening, Speak Now tells us to confess our love regardless of time and space. Because in love there is no late and early, only the TRUTH. Even if it takes a wedding ceremony crowd as an audience for your speech.

4.   4.   Back To December – We always have that scenario when we took certain things for granted. Be it in life, opportunities or love. I particularly can’t deny that I once came to a point in my life that I overlooked things and persons. Realizing what their worth only when they are already out of my life. Unfortunately, you can’t always have them back the way you want them to. “I’d go back in time and change it, but I can’t.”

5.   5.   The Story Of Us – Of all the songs in this album, this is the one that is most played in my iPod. Maybe because this is the song which I can mostly relate to. We always have that person that we can’t take away the ‘awkwardness’ away from them whenever we see them. You’re dying to talk to them but don’t know if they feel the same way so you just sat there across them looking like a total weirdo, pretending to answer an imaginary phone call. “This is looking like a contest of who can act like they care LESS.”

6.   6.   Last Kiss – I have been through a really rough break up recently. During that time this song has spoken perfectly for me for the time I was so sad to even talk about what I was feeling. That feeling of having some of his belongings left in your keeping and all you do is to stare at them, cry and even wish for them to talk back at you. Even the littlest object reminds you of a certain incident of you together. Your nightmare of having the person you have never pictured of to be apart from you comes to life right at your face. A line there that caught me most is, “So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep, And I feel you’ll forget me like I used to feel you breathe.” Social networks now play a vital role in our generation. Un-friending a person is the best way to move on for some persons. I admit that I did the same in one of my exes, and still check on his profile just to know what he’s up to from time to time even if it’s torture on my part. You can’t just ‘program’ your brain to start ‘not to care’ instantly. It would take a VERRYYY long process.

To Forgiveness

It's been five months since I have been with my last boyfriend. And the breakup was awful. After having an exchange of curses and hurtful words, we haven't heard from each other since. I never thought that I will have a chance to communicate with him again. Until..

Last month, September, my midnight was interrupted with a buzz from Yahoo Messenger. I myself was lazy enough to close the media player I was watching. Alright, I'll just see whoever that person is, what his problem in the midst of 1 am and then eventually continue with my movie. But all of those were ignored upon seeing in the screen of whom the buzz from my contacts was from. Then I realized it was accompanied by a, "Can I talk to you?" message. I had a mini heart attack once I laid eyes on the name. It was from him. the one who successfully broke my heart, crashed it to pieces and then fed it to stray dogs. that moment I literally froze. I don't know what to do. I found my fingers typing across the keyboard of my laptop the words, "About what?"  the moment I send those words I had a battle with my head, a part of me shouted that "You should have never replied! you should have let him waiting for nothing, you should have disappointed him for not responding!" But a part of me wants to know what he's about to say. So as I waited for his reply, I repeatedly hoped this to be THE right decision. Once again I scolded myself for being impulsive and not thinking things through before acting on them. 

As what I have thought, he asked for my forgiveness of what happened between us. He said he may have been a dick for what he did, but he's sorry now and was so guilty of what happened.

The evil ego inside me thought: I could have my revenge. I could play a game with him. I can do exactly what he did to me -- Make him fall for me again, lead him on, Then just leave him... EFFORTLESSLY. 


But I fought those thoughts away from me. Instantly, I replied with a, "All of that was forgotten. Even the BITCH forgives. Don't worry." WHAT THE HELL? And then we chatted for a while about what I was up to, the conversation was mostly about me because he's the only one who's asking, all my replies were mostly just, "yes", "no", "haha", "really?" I felt in his every message that he throws 'signals' to reconcile with me. But, of course I ignored them. And then we bid our good nights. But I didn't sleep yet, I thought of our conversation. 

Surely my friends won't approve of my rection from his sorry, one of them would tell me that I shouldn't have forgiven him. That I should make him suffer, in equal to what he did to me. One would even scold me of being shallow, and then would tell me if ever I forgot whom I just had a conversation with, and then he would remind me how awful a person he was. But my reply would be simple: I don't want to sound bitter around him. I don't want him to think that I never got over him. That He never left his space in my heart. TRUTH BE TOLD, I was so much better. I can't picture him included in my life anymore. And I'm okay now, I'm so much better without him. Actually I am thankful that we broke up. Because of that, my outlook in life changed and I can look forward to new beginnings ahead of me.