Out of nowhere, my senses told me to go check your twitter account, and there I laid my eyes on your posts which were straightforward, pertaining to me. I broke your heart, I know. And I did it again. Now we are hardly friends when back then, we were so close together. I don’t want to sound naive, but from what I’m showing, I always come back to you every time I end my relationship with another. The last time, you were thoughtful enough to accept my presence. But now, I can’t even feel you. I am guilty of what I did, pushing you aside whenever I “meet” other person. I always had in my mind that whenever I need someone to back me up you will always be there. But no. Not this time. I had my chances and they were all used up. I threw them out like I’m an insensitive bitch.
I remember how we sneak out from our classes just because we find the professors or the subjects boring and then we’d hit the cafe after. There, we’ll just talk about anything and everything there is to say. I remember you telling me I was “trustworthy” of people’s secrets when I rant about how come people tell me their secrets because I find it hard to have a burden inside me with things I can’t tell to anyone. When after my duties at hospital, you make it a point that we’ll meet once I arrive. I miss when people see us together, with their eyes studying us, we can see their faces questioning if we are together. We’ll just smile with the thought of it. I miss every time you sing to me. I miss your voice, your laugh. The way you talk, the way WE talk.
Something inside me says it misses you. And I don’t even doubt it. Because I really do. I just want it back the way it used to be. I may have hurt you but all that were being apologized for. I’m not asking for you to be with me. I just want my friend inside you to return. I’m in need of that right now. Though you ignore me every time I make a move, I will always be here trying. Please don’t let everything we’ve been through to be vanished in just a snap. We can’t deny it, I was once yours, and you were once MINE :(
awww...
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